CASSIE'S ENTRY

useless....

its like im lying around doing nothing and when anyone feels like they need something that i can provide, they look for me when they need stuff like....

money,

company,

a voice that talks to them on the phone just to make them sleep ( they dont even care what the voice is saying ),

if they happen to be free and have nothing to do, they look for me to go and hang out with them ( dont even care if im ACTUALLY free or not )

...............

coz im always not doing anything, right?..

thats what they all think...for once can someone think about me? .....no ..... no one does

the only person that i can kind of bug once in a blue moon and be a little selfish is my brother...but even he almost always has something to do.....

i really hate this...... maybe i should just ignore everyone and pretend like im not there...but i dont think they'd notice or even care....then id just end up without any frens....

argh ...i cant bear to be lonely...maybe thats why i go so far and do so much to please people.

i really need someone to hug...my pillow has gone all flat already.... its not gonna puff up again..

T_T & thats another thing.....all my frens have several things in common....

1. they hate to hug ( they think its weird )
2. they hate expressing themselves ( even when we've known each other for so long )
3. they hate watching horror movies
4. they prefer NOT to eat cheap food ( but i'm always so damn pokai T_T )
5. they don't like to window shop like me ( if they go shopping the actually shop...buy things with money......T_T & i stand around and either, watch them, follow them around or carry their stuff )
6. they'd rather go to a shoe shop than go to a book shop
7. they don't like sitting in one place and chatting for too long..( always on the move T_T )
8. they think my facial expressions are too bloody EXPRESSIVE...and they go like ( * Cass, can u please STOP THAT! * )....when all i did was look at something
9. they would keep quiet when i'm talking too loud and then tell me LATER that i had been too loud
10. they never ask me about my pets....the only people who do ask after them is Malini & Sis.Bodhi.

Maybe its time to disappear for a bit....